Seek. Learn. Live.

Today is the 10th day towards my new lifestyle. It’s such a short time… It’s not even a full 2 weeks time. Yet lately I’m already starting to feel the effects of working the plan. Especially on my body I’m suffering from muscle pain after doing squats during a work-out session. My body is not used to the movement and the pain is excruciating and a constant reminder of how I let myself go for the past years. Recently I noticed that perhaps one of the reasons I didn’t succeed with my former personal goals is because I have rejected my health -and blindly went after what I found interesting. Also performing sports or any other form for physical activity brings more than good health as a positive effect. I remember when I was playing volleyball in Egersund I had a similar level of activities as I have today and perhaps I was even more ambitious back then. Yet in those days I had no qualms of doing what was necessary because I my parents, the teacher and my coach to tell me what to do. Also I had an innate commitment to myself – of what I wanted to do and get – even when I didn’t write the target or the plan. How odd… How come when I was trying to learn exactly how to set a goal, write a plan and work the plan – I recall the times when I was 14 years old til I was 17…

Although, there are some differences back then and now. When I was 14-17 years old I lived together with my parents and I didn’t have to worry about preparing food, laundry, dish-washing and other house chores.  Mom was very specific about keeping the house clean and sometimes I would help her out, though almost always unwillingly… After moving out at the age of 17, I discovered that I’m not very good at studying if my surroundings are untidy and/or noisy. A nother thing was, in 2007 I started living with my boyfriend and it was a period of adjustment for the both of us. I was accustomed to having someone doing the basic housecleaning for me or reminding me to do something. So, there I was young, naive and a rookie to the adult life – trying to learn how to live on my own, understand my needs and abilities to cover them, all the time while I was learning how to live with someone I love. And man, was it hard… Then distractions became a big temptation. Games, movies, comic books, etc. There was always something to put my hands into however whatever I did, didn’t feel like it was giving me anything. Welcome to the path of chaos…

I started questioning about “life”. What is the point in life? What is my purpose? How can I discover this? Where should I start? All these questions and no definite answer to be found. Only hints and advises from relatives, friends and books. I was living in the western world where freedom is an absolute and it was all up to me to discover and decide what I wanted to do with my life. The only problem was – I wasn’t sure I knew what I wanted…

To relate my stories of the past back to the time when I was doing sports, I’d like to mention just one word – Focus. I lost focus when I moved out from my parents home. At my parent’s place I was living under someone else’s rules and way of life. Then I moved out. I needed to find my own way of living, my self.

So I traveled – I went to see the world. I explored my thoughts, my abilities, listened to other people’s stories and experiences. There have been moments of inspiration, love, pain, suffering, joy, surrender, bliss and excitement. Time flew by. It is now 2012 and what I have accomplished today is concoction of hints, tips and tricks, advises, experiences and ideas on how I should live my life. It’s time to put things in order and act out on my conviction and put the things that I’ve learned to the test. Do I have what it takes to do what I’ve set out for this year?

It’s the 10th day and I am 390 days from my target. I have muscle pains and a schedule to act out. I am scared to fail but eager to succeed. Therefore til January 2013, I’d just have to endure and have fun on this journey. No matter what I’ll see to it that I give my best til day400 arrives.