Structure – what’s that?

Goodness! Finally took time to update my blog and what was the first thing I noticed? Bet you readers were to nice to comment about it but the “categories” section look messed up. So a few (perhaps nearly hundreds) clicks here and there… Voila, it’s starting to look more decent. Still has a lot more to go but it’s an alright start for now I guess.

It’s nice to have order in things. However I have this issue that when I get caught up with something I’ll do anything, everything and nothing connected with it. Meaning, it becomes a chaotic pursuit of passion and love for sometime and then the emotions dwindle and I’ll be left behind with a bunch of thoughts, experiences, memories and reflections. How do I sort these kind of things?

Since 2006, I’ve been all over the place. Sporadic, really, as my boyfriend was so nice to re-frame it. While studying, I pursued a career within a student organization, worked part-time in several part time jobs, trotted the globe, met a lot of inspiring people, been in several events and fun projects. I’d definitely like to go through all these experiences and sort them out, reminisce, and reflect about what I learned through them. But that’ll have to wait til next time… The materials are still in the jumble and brainstorming phase but hopefully later on, I’ll figure some way how to sort them out. Get some structure and hopefully a nice layout too

Been reading other blogs for 2 nights in a row and found interesting people with interesting stories to share. It was a pleasant surprise that most of the people that I’ve visited, visited my site as well

moments of confession and confusion

It has been a while since I’ve updated this blog. I guess the workload did its toll on me after all. Working day in and day out with  the same things and worries made me realize something. That things do get boring sometimes, especially when you do it out of necessity. Off course my activities did not start because I felt like I had to. It is a meer part of it. Mostly I start doing things because I want to try myself out and explore my opportunities. Opportunistic and selfish, some might say. However honestly if I were to think more of others opinions than mine thne where would I be? After some years and reflection on how I have developed I came to a resolution that I did put a lot of weight on others opinions. At least those who were important and close to me. I decided to take a higher education because of my family’s expectations but mostly because of my ambitions.

 

It has been 10 years since I moved to Norway however it has been just now lately that this country started to feel more like home. Perhaps it is my activities that binds me to this region. Maybe it is the people, either way I like it here now. As a matter of fact I really like it here. There has been troubles and tribulations now and then. It is life after all, and I am just trying to live through it happily and with some integrity. I have tried my best to solve my issues as best as I could, mostly with help from friends and families.

 

The past few months have a been a trial to me, however mostly to my motivation. I want to start over. Make things clear and right, however I am not so silly and irresponsible to drop my tasks and responsibilites. I want to renew myself and come back stronger than before. I guess polishing has never been easy. Despite the ups and downs, and emotional setbacks and rollercoasters, I think my ability of overthinking too much about things can be both an advantage and disadvantage. For some time I considered it a negative point. Sometimes when I notice myself getting back to the same patter of thought I repriamnd myself saying “your doing it again”. This is what has been happening for some time now. I have been rethinking and going through things that I have done for the couple of years. Like what has happened, why I am doing the things I do and such. All in all, and after much given thoughts, I came to a conclusion. This is me. This is just the way I am. Periods of insecurity and vulnerability will come however if I lull myself too much in these thoughts, there is no way that I will be able to move forward.

 

So for the future me who is currently at the moment a person that thinks and talks too much I give you this advice: start doing more and analyze things less. hehe

 

warning: webpages requires multitasking and patience. lots of it

It’s been more or less half a month since I have gotten into creating webpages. To my surprise, I find it very entertaining to work with the layout, content and design. It’s almost like playing pc-games. Although with this one I can both recreate and create. I am having a lot of fun working with my webpage and at the same time I get that satisfaction of creating something with my own two hands.

 

It is just recently that I found the design of the webpages I work with to my satisfaction. I demand high quality on both content and design to anything that I do. I don’t settle for good when it can be great. However I find it challenging to promote my site online. Asking relatives and friends to visit is nearly not an option as I do not wish to bother anyone. However it would be pleasing to know that there are people out there whom may find my topics relevant.

 

So far I have tried linkreferal.com, and other sites promising leads to my site,  however it seems that I will need to demonstrate more patience before I can see some results.