OMG – It’s working!

 

December 29, 2011 I created the annual and budget plan for 2012. Aiming to reach my targets in education, career, health and relationship, I’ve started setting weekly goals for each subject and considering that it was holiday and there was no school, I focused on doing what I can on the career, health & relationship sections. The main challenge was the health – going to the gym and working out. With a goal of going to the gym 2-3x a week, I was concerned that I have yet again taken more than I can handle. Yet today I discovered that the plan is actually working. It’s a nice surprise and hopefully the progress will remain steady forward.

A change of life – hmmm… life style

Last weekend of January a huge part of my life this past 2-3 years have been cut off. The local committee of student organization has been shot down due to several reasons. Reasons that I’ve tried to understand but not really accepted. Either way, there’s no help reminiscing over it. It’s the past. AIESEC has still given me opportunities to learn about myself and meet other wonderful people. For that I will always be grateful.

Off course there are still lingering emotions. It’s been harder than I thought to get back to a normal student life. Way more challenging than expected. The most stressing part of it was when I had nothing to stress over, no events to coordinate, no tasks to delegate. What was this all about? *sigh*

Thanks to a good friend I was able to look at things from a different perspective. Off course there is a feeling of regret that I was not able to deliver a glorious ending to my AIESEC experience. It ended abruptly, actually. But I guess, that phase was over, now it’s just time to move to the next one. It would’ve been easy to just put blames from everything and everyone else, aside from me. Unfortunately, this is something that I am not capable of doing. *sigh*

February has been a month of several new events and activities. Sounds quite exciting, right? Although what I’ve done is basically go back to my old habits. Being social & hanging out w/ friend, working, studying, playing volleyball and playing pc-games. Even drawing. *smile*

I’ve had time to reflect over things. Tried to understand the purpose of this change. How did I end up here? What did I learn? What will I take from this experience? What do I want to do now? Which exciting new projects should I work on? Thankfully, I’ve come up with several ideas. My personal experience so far proves that the saying “When a door closes, another one opens.” is true. *grin*

Haha. I still remember November 2010, when I have decided to resign from a well paid office job due to my studies. I wanted to focus on my education and haven’t regretted it ever since. Though I should’ve done it from the get go, really. Anyways, better late than never. My thoughts exactly were that “If another opportunity arises on campus, I’ll take that instead.” The day after my resignation, I got a phone call. It was a job opportunity and wow, what an opportunity it was. The job was very much relate to my studies and interests. So I grabbed the opportunity. These past 3 months I’ve been working w/ this project along w/ my other interests. It was my plan C then, now it’s my plan B. *laugh*

These past few days I’ve been studying, having good laughs w/ friends and still reflecting over the things that have happen, ever now & then. Ok. Fine! Everyday. *look away* Though there have been plenty of surprises. For example, now that I actually have time to stay on campus, sit at the library & eat in the cantine. You know, do things that I’ve never taken time to do before. I’ve always come across friends & aquaintances. It’s been a nice way to catch up w/ peoples, and I love hearing their stories & adventures.

There is still some time before February ends. Meaning there is still some time for me to get over the past, ‘cos yes, in some ways the memories have mix of darkness in them as well. I like looking at the positive side most of the time. However I have also learned that accepting the facts, especially the pains, are a part of the learning experience. It’s not all sweet, but perhaps bitter sweet. Dark chocolate anyone? *laughs*

Set of complaints = procrastination

There are a lot of things that I wish I could’ve done differently, preferrably with good results. However it is typical of me to try swallowing more than I can chew and end up as  the one being chewed out due to stress and failure.

 

I should’ve done more studying…

Every semester I set the usual goal which is to get highest grade possible in all my subjects. My studying technique usually works with some of my subjects but there is always a subject that I find challenging. As I am active in AIESEC my time to study lessens as I prioritize my responsibilities over my studies at certain periods in time. Thus as a result my results haven’t turned out how I expected them to be. Then again perhaps my expectations and effort doesn’t match…

 

I should’ve done more excercise…

Studies, part-time job, AIESEC and an almost non-existant social life eats up most of my time. Not to mention sleep. It is quite common during a week that sleep gets less prioritized over other activities. Good health is something that I aspire to achieve. I’ve heard that good health should be a balance between body, mind and soul. For the last couple of years the focus has been on nurturing the mind & soul, the body have been left out mostly. During my high school years I’ve been active in sports however due to deteriorating motivation and effort I’ve prioritized doing other things aside from excercises.

 

I should’ve avoided doing those mistakes…

Making decisions on a daily basis for different activities, no wonder some things just give out. I am afraid to make mistakes. In fact I dislike losing or failing at something. I prefer success over failure but then again who doesn’t? However if I continue being afraid and not take any risks, it is most unlikely that I’ll achieve anything more than the ordinary.

 

I think too much…

I have tendency of going through my actions and analyzing my progress in life. What am I doing, how am doing things, why I’m doing things, etc. I’m dissecting my chain of thoughts in order to understand myself, my purpose. However I’ve realized that sometimes too much of one things is not a good thing.

 

Procrastination - The action of delaying or postponing something

I complain. It’s just that I try not to do it all too much because if I focus on the complaining I’ll have less time to actually fix the problem. I enjoy using time on myself so that I may improve myself. It is not perfection that I aspire but happiness. I make mistakes and I try to learn as much as possible from them. Also if given an opportunity I try to set things right as well.

 

Basically, today’s lesson for me is: Less thinking more action. Otherwise I’ll be only mulling over old thoughts and actions and nothing new.

 

A new day, A New Week

Finally got through a week with flue and just getting better. Body clock is back to normal and I am now back to getting up normally at 6:30 am. After getting up sluggishly in the morning and fighting off thoughts of failure and mistakes I needed a serious inspiration to start the day. Thus I went to my childhood favorite Celine Dion with her “A new day has come”.

At the moment I am sitting in our office and preparing for the interviews of the applicants. This week’s task consists of interviews and LC meeting. The plan is by next week we will have the members registered in the system and ready to participate in EXCEL.

For school the schedule for the day is to go to the lecture for market analysis. I especially like this subject because I find it really interesting and the professor is quite good at lecturing as well. Yesterday I was working on writing a story about the national dish of Norway, Fårikål. The story was based upon the information that I’ve found online. It was quite challenging and quite funny as well. I wasn’t entirely sure if I would be able to write 2-3 pages about a dish. Then again ithere’s nothing wrong with trying out new things. By the end of the week there be an exam so this week I’ll be focusing on preparing for the exam.