The constant battle between My Present & Future Self

It’s 2012 and just like everyone else I’ve made a handful of New Years’ Resolution. To prepare myself for this year I planned the work and now it’s mainly up to me to work it out. However lately I feel that I am in a constant battle with myself.

On developing the year plan, I’ve used all the tools & tricks that I’ve gathered throughout these past 2-3 years on time management, personal management and self-awareness. I’ve noted down my habits  and willingness to act. The weekly plan up to week 17 has been filled and I have already a good overview on my activities for the next 3 months. My goals have qualitative and quantitative measurements. They’re realistic, not to optimistic but not overly pathetic & pessimistic either.

My priorities are in order. I set education as my first priority, career as second, health as third and relationships as fourth. I plan to complete my bachelor degree in economics and 1 semester of a year course in arts.  At work I’d set to learn as much as possible about cosmetics, perfumes and alcohol. At my business I’d set to help 5-12 people in developing their own business. About my health I’ve set my goal on doing exercises 2-3 times a week and lose about 5-10 kg during the year. Lastly but not the least, I intend to visit my parents in Egersund 2x a month.

I’ve always been an ambitious person and its been more than once or twice that I’ve set myself to fail due to my inability to balance my expectations to my abilities and willingness to act. This year, my main goal, is to improve my relationship with myself. To prove to myself that I can set goals, act upon them and reap the fruits of my labor. My main challenge however is self-discipline, or to be precise, my lack a good one. Being impulsive, curious and sporadic has set its tracks on my habits. Therefore I decided to work on the basics with hope that I’ll succeed and meet at least 50-70% of my goals for this year.

January 1, 2012 at 4:00am til 11:00am I was at work. Since December I’ve been polishing the plan, proof checking it and started already on working on the habits of going to gym and eating a balanced diet. There are however very many temptations and distractions along the way. Thus I need to work on the commitment along with the self-discipline. 2012 will definitely be an interesting year.