Finally the weather is clearing up here in Stavanger. It’s been 2 months of gray weather & rain, and it is about time I got to feel some sign of spring! Some clear sky & shiny sunshine lights my mood up especially when my bank account is close to choking itself. I’ve made several mistakes, one after another. First, I knew I should have not gone for a trip to London and Ireland. However how could I not to when I have not seen my cousin for over a decade? It was a trip worth doing but now I am paying the price… Luckily I got to take extra shifts at work so I could get my hands on some extra cash…
Funny that – I am supposed to be the one studying economy yet I am unable to handle my own personal economy as I am too busy spending (what I don’t have)… Arg! I’ve accepted my fault and decided to solve this issue. Don’t know how it will work but I have to try something new too because obviously the system I had before didn’t work all too well. Also, we are moving to a new apartment this month, so that will be an extra cost as well. Along with the team building trip to Aberdeen next week… *sigh* I feel delighted and excited about the trip and just too happy that by that time I’ve had worked my share without giving up any work days to travel.
Things are moving forward despite my slightly pessimistic reflections. Sure at the moment I’m struggling financially – but all in all things are going well. I’m looking at the bright side of life because I have a job to go to and an alternative income source to develop if I just find the will to act upon it. Also, lately I’ve been able to hang out with mom and talk with our relatives in Philippines. Nothing compares to the wackiness, drama and excitement from chatting with our loved ones over the phone. I miss my grandpa, my uncle, my cousins and my aunts… Mom and Dad will be travelling to Philippines this summer and I can’t help but feel a slight twinge of jealousy but at the same time I’m looking forward to the stories they will share once they get back.
I am dedicating this year to develop myself and work on my weaknesses. Unfortunately, the usual trend has already set in. I plan, I make a good start then I start slipping off. Now – I am starting to slip off. Due to the after effects of travelling to London in January, I’m behind on my studies, my economy is at the edge of destruction and I’ve not been to the gym for 3 weeks. Fortunately, there’s some progress in some areas. I’ve decided on my bachelor thesis and started developing it. There’s also progress in developing relationships, so somehow it balances out.
What I’ve noticed these past few weeks is that despite the challenges and mistakes I’ve made, I’ve somehow managed to continue because I’ve had good friends to talk with and that I could always depend on mom for moral support. That and by simply not stopping to act upon on my goals. There is sometimes this feeling of uncertainty when I am doing something but despite this emotion – I urge myself somehow to just act, strengthen my resolve and create a result.
